In the twenty three years of my life, I think I have never completely told you how important you are to me. I want you to know that your existence to me is like water. An essential need to my everyday. And though I do (literally) say that I love you, not only with words but with hugs and kisses as well, I feel that it is always insufficient. That it will always be lacking. I feel that no matter how many times I give my appreciation, it would never amount to the affection and dedication you gave me your whole life. Was a hug enough for the warm meals you make every morning? Or would a kiss take out the stress of staying up late to patch up my uniforms? I slip by a lot of times without even saying the word "thank you"...and I am truly sorry for those times. It's not that I don't appreciate you. I am just so grateful to you mom, beyond the countless words my mind can think off.
Remember when I was a kid? We used to live in this big and lonely house. For me, the world was the wide living room with the few furniture. You were there, neatly sitting across the room from where I keep my robot toys and Tomy cars, diligently watching over me. Mom, I bet you don't know, but in my memories you were a giant. However, you were a gentle one. I can remember how I used to look up to you knowing that I can never reach you. So little and powerless. Then, you'll go and pick me up with your caressing hands to encase me in a warm embrace. I felt really loved.
As I grew up, I was a little messed up. I was arrogant and egocentric. But you know, a kid will always have that phase at one point in their lives. I am sorry for threatening to leave the house once. Was it because of the dessert I loved very much? I can't really remember what the cause was but I am fairly sure it was a childish reason. I thank you for putting up with me and my rather difficult personality. Whenever I did something wrong, you would punish me but in kindness. In Florante and Laura, I remember this line,"Pag-ibig anaki'y aking nakilala, di dapat palakhin ang bata sa saya." You made sure not to spoil me for it will be far more cruel for you to do so. Although, I still remember that ruler you used to spank me with in fear (Well, mostly it was lolo's belt that I remember in true fear), I look back at the memory with pride. Mom, you loved me very much to be cruel at times that you need to.
During my awkward teenage years, how could I possibly forget about your warm welcoming of my adolescence. I bet you worried a lot for me. I know how reluctant you were in letting me out to the world. For you know how it works, you have raged your youth in it and found how scary the outside world would be. But you respected my age and acknowledged my petty wisdom. Slowly, you let me out of my castle to spread my little wings. You helped me take that first step to independence and supported me in whatever decision I made. I thank you mom! I never would have pulled through today if you haven't allowed me so.
Now, as a young adult, you face yet another hurdle in motherhood. I have expressed my intention to leave the house after saving up some money. You must feel lonely just thinking about it. Maybe that is why you always feel lonely...because you are thinking of the near future of me and Aiko leaving you. Please remain strong and courageous as you are! Remember that we always love you even if we are far away. From the day I was but a little baby inside your stomach, you have filled me with the seed of love that grew with every warm touch and kisses you gave me. It will continue to grow and it shall bear fruit to every thing I do. And perhaps yes, in moment's glance, I'll be planting seeds of love as well in your grandson's (or granddaughter's) heart just as you have with us.
Please continue to support me in everything!
Remember when I was a kid? We used to live in this big and lonely house. For me, the world was the wide living room with the few furniture. You were there, neatly sitting across the room from where I keep my robot toys and Tomy cars, diligently watching over me. Mom, I bet you don't know, but in my memories you were a giant. However, you were a gentle one. I can remember how I used to look up to you knowing that I can never reach you. So little and powerless. Then, you'll go and pick me up with your caressing hands to encase me in a warm embrace. I felt really loved.
As I grew up, I was a little messed up. I was arrogant and egocentric. But you know, a kid will always have that phase at one point in their lives. I am sorry for threatening to leave the house once. Was it because of the dessert I loved very much? I can't really remember what the cause was but I am fairly sure it was a childish reason. I thank you for putting up with me and my rather difficult personality. Whenever I did something wrong, you would punish me but in kindness. In Florante and Laura, I remember this line,"Pag-ibig anaki'y aking nakilala, di dapat palakhin ang bata sa saya." You made sure not to spoil me for it will be far more cruel for you to do so. Although, I still remember that ruler you used to spank me with in fear (Well, mostly it was lolo's belt that I remember in true fear), I look back at the memory with pride. Mom, you loved me very much to be cruel at times that you need to.
During my awkward teenage years, how could I possibly forget about your warm welcoming of my adolescence. I bet you worried a lot for me. I know how reluctant you were in letting me out to the world. For you know how it works, you have raged your youth in it and found how scary the outside world would be. But you respected my age and acknowledged my petty wisdom. Slowly, you let me out of my castle to spread my little wings. You helped me take that first step to independence and supported me in whatever decision I made. I thank you mom! I never would have pulled through today if you haven't allowed me so.
Now, as a young adult, you face yet another hurdle in motherhood. I have expressed my intention to leave the house after saving up some money. You must feel lonely just thinking about it. Maybe that is why you always feel lonely...because you are thinking of the near future of me and Aiko leaving you. Please remain strong and courageous as you are! Remember that we always love you even if we are far away. From the day I was but a little baby inside your stomach, you have filled me with the seed of love that grew with every warm touch and kisses you gave me. It will continue to grow and it shall bear fruit to every thing I do. And perhaps yes, in moment's glance, I'll be planting seeds of love as well in your grandson's (or granddaughter's) heart just as you have with us.
Please continue to support me in everything!
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| I love you mom! You're the best! |
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