Leaving Philippines

Emilio Aguinaldo College Bachelor of Science in Occupational Therapy Batch 2011-2012

I'm leaving for Canada this June 10 with my sister.  This time it's going to be long.  For a year or so and I really don't know how to react (or at least I think I don't) to this new situation.  My friend said that "parang hindi ako malungkot" but I am sad.  It's just that I have my family over there too so I have my feelings all mixed up.  I am sad to leave the country that I grew up in, but I am happy to meet the family I left there - my mom, dad and little sister. Leaving is such a hard thing, that I know well. I don't want to think of it as somewhere not here on Earth.  I remember when my bestfriend died during highschoool, mom told me to think that "nangibang bansa lang siya", just to ease the pain of being left.  And I think I have for a while now.  I think I have thought of her as someone who travelled to an unreachable place.  But my situation is different.  I mean, come on, with all the technological advances in the last decade in order to provide opportunities to communicate, why make it such a big deal.  I'd rather think of it that way because truthfully, if I didn't...I'll cry.  And that is something I don't want my friends to see when I leave - I'd want them to remember me as "being me".  The weird, quiet and not so sociable me with a smiling face. I hope and pray that things turn out well this year for us.